I've been sleeping a lot lately. Well, mostly since I returned from Portland. This is noteworthy because I am a self-proclaimed insomniac. Anyone who knows me well would be able to attest that I can operate on very little sleep... like 4 hours MAX! My usual day goes like this: I wake up at 7 am (or a tad before), get the girls ready, make breakfast, drive Sophie to school, do stuff around the house (cleaning, house projects, etc.), run errands, drive the girls to their extra-curricular activities (swimming, toddler classes, etc.), work on design or sewing in between stuff, put the girls to bed no later than 8:30 pm and then my work day really begins. I normally either design or sew until 2 or 3 am. Then I toss & turn for a while and am back up at 7 am the next day.

Lately it's been different though. I've been going to bed early (well, 11:30 to midnight is early for me). Wake up at the same time (and sometimes late! UGH!) but catch cat naps all day long. The extra curricular activities are over for the year, so there is no more driving around during the day, unless it's for my own purposes. This affords me the opportunity to just veg out on the couch with Sydney a lot. I pop in a movie she likes and then I'm out for a couple of hours! What's wrong with me? This is not the usual Patty. I'm usually a ball of energy... bouncing from thing to thing all day long. I never sit down unless it's at the sewing machine or computer. That's how I'm able to accomplish as much as I do while caring for 2 small children (or 3 if you count Jon).

There's a few theories bouncing in my head... one is that I'm making up for lost sleep. Especially during those crazy 4 days at Market. ;) My second theory is that the weather is having an adverse effect on my mood. When it's nearly June and it's 45 degrees and storming outside for days, it has got to affect your psyche somehow, right? And lastly, I think I may have iron deficiency anemia again... going to get that checked out next week. I've had this before, twice, and it always comes with fatigue so it may be a close guess. Or maybe it's all of the above combined, but nevertheless I've got to get out of this funk soon because I have so much to do.

If you're curious as to what I've got going on right now, I'm in the midst of color pitching for my new line of fabric. It is similar to what those of us in the graphic design / printing world would call "color separation" but instead of using Pantone swatches, we use actual fabric swatches. It's loads of fun (and I'm not being sarcastic here... it really is load of fun!). My designs are finished... there are 9 total different designs and 4 palettes (colorways) each, for a total of 36 beautiful mix & match fabrics... I hope you love them as much as I do. I will share some sneaks here really soon. I know I keep promising that, but this time it's for real, just give me a couple of days to get all this color pitching done and I will take some pics of my boards right before I send them off to Michael Miller and share right here.

OH, and another weird thing that happened to me: my mom calls me yesterday and offers to take the kids for as long as I want during the Summer months so I can get some work done. What a sweet offer, right? I tell Jon about it, we look up flight information and figure out exactly which days we should do this and for how long. We figured out that the 4 of us could fly down to FL on July 1st, stay there for a week, then Jon & I would return alone on he 8th, leaving the kids at mami & papi's for 2 weeks. Then mami would fly up with the girls on the 22nd and fly back down to FL on the 29th. We ran this info by them, they agreed and... you'd think I'd be ecstatic, right? Well, noooooo! Instead I started feeling sad and wondering if I'd miss them too much and even having freaky thoughts about something terrible happening to the girls and me being hundreds of miles away. UGH! Again... have to get out of this funk -- PRONTO!

OK, so that's what's been going on. I actually feel better after writing it all down. Updating my blog is one of my favorite activities, so I had a feeling it would perk me up. Sorry about all the melodrama, LOL!


  1. I despise funky times & I know how you feel. I hope things perk up for you soon and I can't wait to see your fabric & the colorways! :)

  2. Amber, thanks so much for being my one and only commenter. I guess my audience likes "perky Patty" way better than "pouty Patty" *snort*

    Well, today is a much brighter day... in all senses of the word. I will have a much perkier posting later on this afternoon... something I'm just so happy and proud of. :)

  3. Martha11:39 PM

    Oh Patty.....don't worry about Perky Patty. I can't speak for anyone else but your post touched me deeply. I just don't respond frequently. Usually because I feel like I don't have any wonderful insight or anything to add. The only things I can think to say are trite and the SOS you read everywhere.
    I have been battling with severe exhaustion for about 9 months now. I have had to do some pretty serious self examinations and frequently ask myself "am I depressed?".
    It is so hard to keep it together when you are soooo tired. I manage the house but all my "me" stuff has fallen to the side - no snaps, no sewing, no jewelry making etc.
    Just wanted to say that I think tons of your readers have been there, done that...but don't post about it for a variety of reasons.

    ps - I love to read your blog because it helps me feel connected to inspiration and the wonderfulness that is Modkid!

  4. Martha,

    Your comment was so heartfelt. Thank you so much for opening up like that to me. I truly appreciate it. I am so sorry to hear you have not been feeling well these past few months. I hope it's a temporary thing and you are able to get back to your happy self soon. Luckily, I think my "funk" may be nearly over. I have a lot of work to do, so I am forcing myself to focus and get it done.

    ((((HUGS)))) to you!


  5. Patty. As a insomniac also (about 4-5 hours a night) I know what you mean by not feeling right when you get to much sleep. I blame it on this horrible spring/summer weather. I hope you feel better soon.

  6. Thanks for your comment, CB. :)

    Ever have one of those days when everything seems to fall back into place just perfectly? Today was like that. From the minute I woke up the stars were aligned for me... everything was perfect! No cat naps today... perky Patty is back! :)

  7. aww... i can totally relate to all those emotions you were feeling. You made me laugh out loud when you wrote: "I guess my audience likes Perky Patty way better than Pouty Patty.." and then you wrote SNORT. That was hilarious! Snort! hehe

    You're adorable.


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